over

the 18th week

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 16:22:57 GMT

◎ i hate you......mu.mu......how can you make make the mistake you feel awful before....don't be the person you look donw upon please....now that

there's another me in companied with him.....why do u have to act as a lier??? you acre!! you don't wanana share...you don't want to see the

happies...why not go away??why still to be a stuipd......

i don't konw....i just want to be with him...i konw it's my fault ....i shouldn't fake the love....i konw it won't only hurt us but also somebody

else....i won't .....new year....new begin....he doesn't care....why should i care..... 2008.01.01.20:19

...

◎ 有时候不自觉的把自己和他看成是刘嘉玲和梁朝伟.....但似乎他们之间尚有一丝情....而我们却只能隔着义隔岸观火.....我不知道他是怎么想的.........

有时候给我的感觉很迷惑...很暧昧...很困扰......也许就像他说的...他不是坏人....只是个罪人....是我们的引诱和不自觉犯的错........谢谢他.......

那天气氛真的很不错.....以至于我忘了自己坚持的原则....虽然我不知道他叫什么名字....但是我想说声对不起.....在去旧迎新的时刻.......借用了一下

你的幸福来温暖这个孤独的严冬.....现在我把他还给你....绝对的完璧....呵呵......好像现在这样说也没什么意义.....不过...我是不会一次又一次逾越

自己的原则的.....而且都说做朋友啦(其实....这个朋友才是最没意义的...你说呢?).......好了...在新的一年里....预祝你们随时保持先进性....跟随党的

建设一起创造出一个美好持续发展的和谐未来......

谢谢....谢谢.....鲜花....鼓掌....闭幕....退场.....

呵呵....精神胜利法.....也许吧..... 2008.01.02.02:11

◎ 这几天是不是有轻松???! 2008.01.04.22:13

◎ 在07年的最后一刻....收到你发来的短信....殊不知是否荣幸.....当窗外礼花骤放的时候...才惊觉....2007已经离开了......

2008.01.04.23:26

◎ 总是还习惯在日期的开头写上2007....虽不及08来的特殊....但07年也确实是对我而言十分重要的一年.....有太多的催化着我的成熟........也让我从

心境上有了很大的一步....懂得淡定....至少坦然....面对道歉...抑或是蔑视....除了谢谢...我还能说什么呢.....

2008.01.05.01:44

◎ Sichuang Province will held "the first simulation exam".....so will us as a formor simulation test for our own "first simulation exam".......

with addicting myslfe in wasting time considering....i can't imagine how the mark goes......pray for not falling out of the top 3....

"good good study ....and day day up" hehe.....

2008.01.05.15:12

begining end

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 15:32:35 GMT

long time no see....spaces....hehe.....having been left alone for such a time.....now you get a start......

"end" could never be end.....i will renew it every week ........and the rest days of school year wiil be in company with end.........not only did english is to express...also chinese....not absolute .....not particular ok......that's all.....see you next week....sweet dream....

whine

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 14:20:50 GMT

й 对于过往的在意与执着......常常使自己给自己布下天罗地网......布于脚下发端.......一触牵引无数........不死不休.....
   担心承受不了......担心失去不了...担心逃避不了......所有的担心......没完没了........刻意把自己放在弱小的一方......
   忘记了自己也有争取的权力.......对于以前的饮弱的耿耿于怀.....卑怯的自责.....又何其愚蠢....为了心里的一个结....
了无生趣....恨不得毁掉自己.......越不越明白......越是挣扎软弱......最后失魂落魄.....情何以堪?可惜理智与情感...却
从来都是争斗不休.....不要更提起过往....就象刺猬.....尖锐得令人难以招架......放爱一条生路.......也许自会宁静致
远.........
弹指之间可分六十个刹.....刹那间便是永恒......如果人生只有这个刹那.....那有多好....
不错.......这已是永恒......又何必管昨天?
人自有其真性情.......练出那铁心心肠......铜皮铁骨....不过是为了让自己有一颗勇于接受爱与现实的心.........
爱情的不高尚.......只有过来人才能面对......才能放开胸襟去拥抱不完美的爱情.......
         失去抑或得到.....既已坦然......夫复何求?
                                                昨天......且烟消云散吧!

断了就断了.....既以无法修复.....又无处可得.......且错过的.....请你把握............

或许.......痴情不是一种罪过.....但绝对是一种自虐......而且像毒药一样上瘾.....直至筋疲力尽.....

心情的逆向季节终于开始反客为主.....平静的同时.....守望终究还是折服于寂寞的诱惑吧......亦如知道自己会

流产的孕妇在胎儿离开自己时.........终于放声大哭......绝望却又不压抑.....是自责还是解脱.....漫过了情感的感

情......被理性分析得一丝不挂.....然后再给它披上慰藉一样的各种接口.....不需要了吧....赤裸就赤裸....文字的

打闹被抛弃....被遗忘......顺带着拐走了一直伴随着的激动与挣扎........不是忙.....是太闲了.....闲得以至于开始

现象如老友时隔多年重逢时却是婚礼的喧嚣和抽搐的微笑.......也是无奈.....当绝对不一样.....对时间的责怪没

人会去计较......每天都莫名兴奋着开始.....惆怅郁郁着过去.....第二天却依然莫名兴奋.....不是第六感的心灵感应....

是一个人分饰两角的惯性......也许前面会有不期而遇.....但也只是耸耸肩......讪笑着走过去....

爱......不是你给......就得有人要......

没必要再逼自己往火坑里跳.........

   最近都不怎么想写东西......心情抑郁....其实我也不知....抑或是期待....期待不属于我的东西.....抑或是兴奋.....却注定无缘相遇.......其实是颓败.......想着现实的不清晰.......害怕重逢与别离.......感觉周围的人都很躁动.......发泄时却已无踪影......要坚强....尽管不知道是什么使我们压抑.....一定是我太贪心.....想要每件事情都参与.....却也惊恐晚上的黎明.....
            时间有的时候真的很顽皮......将我涟漪慢慢抚平......亦如后知后觉......却是"善善不能用......恶恶不能除"之举......在迫切....却也是心有余而不足力.....    还是会想起你.....然无时间与精力..........
            呵~~~也许你说的对......一切一切都会随时间逝去.....现在回忆....仍然是心有余悸......

"想啊.........."悲哀抑或是喜悦?! 其实并没有太多了情愫........反到是一种释然的绝望..........

◎ 有时候感觉我们就靠着范得瓦尔斯力相互作用着......随着距离的增加.....这种维系就会越来越弱.....

◎ 不要把自己想得太伟大...至少这会让我很尴尬.......

ever

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 13:09:17 GMT

part   1:　后知后觉．．
　　　　我是一个后知后觉的人．．．．尤其在感情上面．．．对于捕风捉影．．．．我始终是不够敏感．．．以前有人说我分不清友情和爱情．．．其实分不清的是你们自己吧．．．我不过是对每个人都好点．．对每个人都当成朋友．．都微笑．．．．
　　　对于爱情的离去．．我也一向大条．．．．其实只是承受不了那生命之痛．．．
　　　　也许某件事对你来说时间久了，突然的离失，巨大的痛苦会产生刹那的游离．．．让你忘记了悲伤．．．忘记了疼痛．．．．然后在反绉一样阵阵的折磨．．．一阵阵的让你抽搐．．比如饥饿．．比如感情．．．
part 2 :麻木不仁．．．．．．
　　　半年了．．．说好听点．．．叫习惯了．．说得不好听点．．．其实就是自己麻木了．．．．
　　　对爱情的讯号已不可能有任何识别．．．并发出回应了．．．．
　　　　　　　＂怕夜长梦多．．．要惊心动魄．．．．终于让我神经衰弱．．．．．＂
　　　也许是真的后知后觉了．．．．但那个人不是我．．．．．
　　　　　　　当你转身开始怀念．．．我已不在．．．．
　　　记得以前的爱情．．．总是那样的血泪艰辛．．．．
　　　　　　　　可以说．．．．在现在及其未来很长的一段时间里．．．．感情生活都会空出来．．．．
　　　　　也许是在等待．．．．也许．．．．就这样吧．．．．
　　　　yes i'm going home　．．．．
　　　　i must hurry home.......
             where your life goes on........
             maybe i' m just going home...
             i'm hurrying home.....
            going home alone.....

end

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 13:07:34 GMT

not very often have we met
       but the feeling seems not to be bad
       both of us held a tide
      the feeling is so right........

                               noly if you've decided
                               there is still a song about why..........
                      a short time so sweet
                      i'd tought as i wish
                      silence   as you were
                      i was left alone without any word.......

              maybe all i did wrong
              i shouldn't try turning the mess into a love song
             both we are too young
             making love is just for fun..........
                                                            you are always on the go
                                                            when i dail the telephone
                                                            nobody's home......

                  the music has been too sad
                       everyone shall have a new a start
                       forget the joy you uesd to bring
                       tomorrow will i see a new begin.......

             love as people say
            it's really not what i'm able to breath
            i was always the one you all look down upon
           but i promised you'll never say me cry........

      is it enough to love??
      is it enough to try??
      i just wanan scram, it makes me feel alive......

over....

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 13:02:59 GMT

i foresee to see the day that you go away

i won't make the same mistake

ending that a mess i used to play

it's our hope that we be living the last day

forsaked as i always be

no one really cares about me

isn't enough you did so much

thx you gave me the courage

hurt i'd thought i will get

but it appears that no sharp was set

i really had enough i try to cry

it seems that i'm just as good as dead

why should i crae

care about a man thingking he is all

thx for your wasting

wasting such a long time to be happy with me

just a process from black sheep to zombie

no pain at all

salvation from the fall

turn me down you did all along

now it's my turn to make you alone

without compunction i'm going home

i must hurry home

yes i'm going home

going home alone..........

呵呵．．．还是会难过．．．．

the mess....

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 13:00:29 GMT

started with my feet

sense lonely happy way

boring life i'm dicated to

if the mess fades away?

all severs as pain to me

i've having my cup of tea

suddenly baby burst into cry

angles leaving me in a fly

"long time no see" years away

as if you were nobody

the shining eyes can not see

see what's the worth you break away

man of consequence you may be

no more chance to touch me

as face we put on

we are both living a lonely life..........

连暧昧都不是．．．连错过都算不上．．．只是我一个人爱的错觉罢了．．．．

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